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Today is our 22nd wedding anniversary and also the last one because there won't be a 23rd one. First of all I would like to thank you from the bottom of my heart for giving me our 2 boys and thank you for the first 18 years of our marriage because they were amazing and some of the best years of my life. I miss the "old" you and how you always made me laugh and each day with you was such a blessing. Back when you were kind, funny, loyal, loving and patient. You "were" my best friend and I wish I could turn back the time. I'm not exactly sure what happened to the "old" you but I do know the "old" you disappeared about 4 years ago and I'd just about give anything to have him back. I gave you 22 years of my life and the last 4 have been a total nightmare! These last 4 years have consisted of 21 Emergency room visits, 3 broken jaws, many broken ribs, 9 concusions, countless black eyes, numerous stitches and that's not even half of it and it doesn't even include the mental abuse over those years. I can't count the times that I've sat and tried to figure out what was I doing wrong to be treated like that? I have always been 100% loyal to you and had 0 infidelities and I always contributed financially to our household and I always supported you in every way. I finally summed up enough courage to leave you, FINALLY! When I left our house with our child I took 4 bags of items we will need such as clothes, paperwork, a few toys etc. That's ALL I left with. Now I'm in a DV shelter and I feel scared and lost and I'm trying to keep it together for our son. The question I have is: WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO NOW?? I have NOTHING!!